My life mirrors yours. About 4 years ago, I signed up with my local Chamber of Commerce and started attending their monthly luncheons, new business openings, public events etc. I have met some really great people and formed friendships with them. I contacted 3 cousins that I ignored for the last 40 years because of the faith, apologized to them for my detachment, and now I have meaningful relationships with them. Went to my 40 year High School reunion for the 1st time, a friend from High School was the lead singer in the band and invited me to sing a Beatle song that we used to sing in high school on stage. It's like we never missed a beat.
Then, I contacted my best friend from high school on Facebook, apologized to him for dumping when I became a JW at age 22. My wife and I stayed with him and his wife for 3 days and had a blast. Now, they are coming to spend a week with us. My point is, you need to take the first step in reaching out. I'm very involved with my community now. We stopped going to the meetings a year ago. One Elder and two current CO's have been texting me a lot lately, I just text back, "I'm heartbroken and depressed that we are well into the 21 first century and that The End, that was supposed to come before the end of the 20th Century never happen. My wife and I have a combined 38 years of Regular Pioneering, Monthly RBC Projects, Convention, Assemblies work because we believed the Organization!"
Now, I'm 61, tired, broke, have no retirement, and working 3 jobs trying to survive. "Where is this promised paradise?